urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:the_refugee tear the son out of your bitch and sprinkle your remains with lime :P the_refugee 2008-10-29T06:18:01Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:the_refugee:1180 2008-10-29T06:18:01Z 2008-10-29T06:18:01Z Five Finger Death Punch- The Bleeding &nbsp;If it's one thing I hate about not eating, it's the shakiness. I can NOT function right now; my muscles are all over the place....well, not really, actually. It's more like a light-headed, gonna-faint feeling. It's aggravating enough to make me eat...but I'll feel too sick if I eat. Food is seriously grossing me out right now. Maybe it's because I dissected a fetal pig today in cell biology lab. I dunno...<br /><br />Going to the psychiatrist on Thursday. Not for eating, though. Oh no, Dr. N will never learn about that. I've been going since I was fourteen for entirely different reasons. I guess you can say that my head is one big chemical mess. I trudged my way through high school sleeping in class, and sitting in corners, writing short stories in a notebook, et cetera blah blah. Teachers thought that I was lazy, didn't care and all that shit. When, in actuality, I was suffering from both severe depression and narcolepsy. Both disorders have run my life since puberty, and now I'm on 300mg of Effexor and 75mg of Provigil. Oh yeah, I also have chronic fatigue, but that's untreatable, which is lucky news for me. yeah, yeah, i know, &quot;whoa is me&quot; right? Well whatever, this is my journal, so I'm writing in it. Ah, that felt nice.<br /><br />Mkay, I'm gonna try to sleep this shakiness off, now. Hopefully that pro-ana group will let me join...so then i can maybe get some tips on how to not be so damn shakyyyyy&nbsp; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:the_refugee:983 2006-06-18T09:31:10Z 2006-06-18T09:31:10Z Nevermore: This Godless Endeavor Title: Lithium and a Lover<br />Pairing: Drarry<br />Rating: PG...?<br />Warning(s): Slash, if that's a warning<br />Notes: This is just a rough lineart, which is rather old, as well. Anybody wanna color it???<br /><br /> <a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="eh...yea"><img alt="" src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y137/crain/hdline.jpg" /><a href="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y137/crain/hdline.jpg"></a></div> <br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:the_refugee:670 2006-06-14T03:13:05Z 2006-06-14T03:13:05Z Killswtich Engage: Hope Is... my first entry ever anywhere...!&nbsp;it's in fringeart!<br /><a href="http://community.livejournal.com/hp_fringeart/894801.html">http://community.livejournal.com/hp_fringeart/894801.html</a><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:the_refugee:406 2006-06-04T06:40:44Z 2006-06-04T06:56:52Z Shinedown: Lost in the Crowd ehh...there's a reason for my username<br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y137/crain/jeanlafitte.jpg" />