http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/ Dried Up, Tied And Dead To The World - LiveJournal.com Wed, 29 Oct 2008 06:18:01 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com the_refugee 9668657 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/81138340/9668657 http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/ 100 100 http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/1180.html Wed, 29 Oct 2008 06:18:01 GMT http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/1180.html &nbsp;If it's one thing I hate about not eating, it's the shakiness. I can NOT function right now; my muscles are all over the place....well, not really, actually. It's more like a light-headed, gonna-faint feeling. It's aggravating enough to make me eat...but I'll feel too sick if I eat. Food is seriously grossing me out right now. Maybe it's because I dissected a fetal pig today in cell biology lab. I dunno...<br /><br />Going to the psychiatrist on Thursday. Not for eating, though. Oh no, Dr. N will never learn about that. I've been going since I was fourteen for entirely different reasons. I guess you can say that my head is one big chemical mess. I trudged my way through high school sleeping in class, and sitting in corners, writing short stories in a notebook, et cetera blah blah. Teachers thought that I was lazy, didn't care and all that shit. When, in actuality, I was suffering from both severe depression and narcolepsy. Both disorders have run my life since puberty, and now I'm on 300mg of Effexor and 75mg of Provigil. Oh yeah, I also have chronic fatigue, but that's untreatable, which is lucky news for me. yeah, yeah, i know, &quot;whoa is me&quot; right? Well whatever, this is my journal, so I'm writing in it. Ah, that felt nice.<br /><br />Mkay, I'm gonna try to sleep this shakiness off, now. Hopefully that pro-ana group will let me join...so then i can maybe get some tips on how to not be so damn shakyyyyy&nbsp; http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/1180.html Five Finger Death Punch- The Bleeding Five Finger Death Punch- The Bleeding listless public 0 http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/983.html Sun, 18 Jun 2006 09:31:10 GMT http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/983.html Title: Lithium and a Lover<br />Pairing: Drarry<br />Rating: PG...?<br />Warning(s): Slash, if that's a warning<br />Notes: This is just a rough lineart, which is rather old, as well. Anybody wanna color it???<br /><br /> <a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="eh...yea"><img alt="" src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y137/crain/hdline.jpg" /><a href="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y137/crain/hdline.jpg"></a></div> <br /><br /> http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/983.html Nevermore: This Godless Endeavor Nevermore: This Godless Endeavor geeky public 2 http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/670.html Wed, 14 Jun 2006 03:13:05 GMT http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/670.html my first entry ever anywhere...!&nbsp;it's in fringeart!<br /><a href="http://community.livejournal.com/hp_fringeart/894801.html">http://community.livejournal.com/hp_fringeart/894801.html</a><br /> http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/670.html Killswtich Engage: Hope Is... Killswtich Engage: Hope Is... blah public 0 http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/406.html Sun, 04 Jun 2006 06:40:44 GMT http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/406.html ehh...there's a reason for my username<br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y137/crain/jeanlafitte.jpg" /> http://the-refugee.livejournal.com/406.html Shinedown: Lost in the Crowd Shinedown: Lost in the Crowd confused public 2